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[287] Avoiding The Truth

January 21, 2020by Rahul Gaur3 Comments

I operate in unwritten words The silences the glitter and the bursts The moment before the click The dawn before it tricks night into losing the battle of sight I operate in the ashes of the cigarette that hurt the knuckle of her hands The gentle desperation of solitude that a thud of the door [...]

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[286] What’s The Use?

January 16, 2020January 16, 2020by Rahul GaurLeave a Comment

Silences pass me by Words corrupt the emotion felt I see like a caterpillar the first jump of a butterfly I’ve cried, lied, caught myself in a righteous flight only to get stuck looking at the aurora interrupted by a meteoric sky To see beauty all around or the destruction that’s impending? The best worst [...]

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[285] empty promises

January 16, 2020January 16, 2020by Rahul Gaur2 Comments

A picture so grey, on a broken paper it remains It conjures up a time that held importance but only in the back of my mind Time turned its wheels and it let it drown away it let it bury under the tip of the iceberg Now all I see is a blinking light in my [...]

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[283] Pendulum of Thoughts

January 12, 2020January 12, 2020by Rahul Gaur2 Comments

I know my illness better than I know myself It’s a cold morning breeze on the last day of summer There is no knock before it enters or any calm before the storm It makes me taste an ecstasy that comes with an understanding that there is a ceiling to every summit and no one [...]

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[282] together we’re apart

January 10, 2020by Rahul Gaur7 Comments

Is it peace or the calm before the storm? My nimble fingers force my eyes close to forget all the frequencies that I find clashing when my focus tries to pull together a semblance of an insight into us Forget all the disturbance in the frequencies between us Forget all the distance that’s increasing by [...]

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[281] New Ending/Beginning

January 3, 2020January 3, 2020by Rahul Gaur7 Comments

I wrote small words before I met her Now I find myself writing them in the grandest of strokes She salvages all my crumpled paper mistakes and glues them back together to reveal an exhibition of my improvement She made me understand that silences don’t necessarily need distraction but sometimes it just needs listening She [...]

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[280] Prelude to an Apocalypse

December 28, 2019December 28, 2019by Rahul GaurLeave a Comment

I’m pretty still till i will myself to sit and until you arrive I stand up unconsciously You’re the morning dawn The creepers of the night kill the silence between us as we discuss in the quiet all the things we said before neatly imprinted in our minds forcefully spoken by our hearts The black [...]

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[279] Past, Present & Future

December 27, 2019by Rahul GaurLeave a Comment

Living off of premonitions Surviving off of doomed predictions Can you change your fate as all your peers fail to prove you wrong Can you become something that you’ve never seen? I never realised that the aftermath is not my future I never realised the empathy for some is exclusion I’ve never seen the potential [...]

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[278] Us & Them

December 19, 2019December 27, 2019by Rahul Gaur7 Comments

For all that i'm lacking in You seem to carry it Should I be attracted? My intuition is still deciding Nowadays I delay decisions I delay emotions to get inside a feeling Lenses of right and wrong have overtaken any given moment In this age of misinformation I’ve started trusting myself a lot less than [...]

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[277] Understanding Your Silence

December 16, 2019December 16, 2019by Rahul Gaur4 Comments

In the city of depression that sells distraction in the night I catch you staring at the ceiling of a club to disguise the mood you found yourself in tonight The music blares above my crackled call for attention A faint breaking voice breaks through the cacophony You look like you’ve heard the sound of [...]