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[275] All Paintings are Self Portraits

December 12, 2019by Rahul Gaur1 Comment

My free advice to you is falling on my deaf ears I project it all to you in hopes that I get myself to hear a cry for help and a life to live I walk in fear and paralyse my honest voice that screams in vacuum all the dreams unfulfilled I create behaviour over [...]

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[274] Let’s Talk About It

December 2, 2019December 2, 2019by Rahul Gaur5 Comments

I listen to you and go back to a time where I lived a simpler life Where your tales of grandeur were happening in the corner of my eye You describe all the sins to forget Morals that you trampled on Why does it then feel familiar? Am I seeing what I experienced more than [...]

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[273] Breathing Yesterday’s Air

November 29, 2019December 1, 2019by Rahul Gaur7 Comments

The age of excess and the diminishing impact of the pains of our glory and the learnings of a failure Every lesson swept under the rug that is hidden under my cerebrum which is rusting in the shame for all that I couldn’t learn and all that I couldn’t tell you in time Whenever I [...]

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[272] About Past Love

November 21, 2019November 21, 2019by Rahul Gaur3 Comments

A rusted bench on a worn out boat It takes up all my attention as it’s holding all of you that i’m holding all in me Waves gush on the boat We land on our head We bleed away our minds We die inside time Carry me over to where you reside where the old [...]

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[269] Lying To Myself

November 11, 2019by Rahul Gaur10 Comments

All that I’ve written previously are thoughts that I no longer remember, words that I didn’t act upon and feelings that I don’t relate to. Is all we are the thoughts that we hold then? Or are the ones I’m writing out now going to become a part of my subconscious soon? Will these thoughts [...]

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[268] Communication

November 10, 2019November 10, 2019by Rahul Gaur2 Comments

I mix up silence for aggression Fighting you in imaginary wars Where do you find your words usually? It seems you’ve lost your way Your answer comes as a bitter understanding “Feelings turn into half thoughts Words impure them usually Sentences jumble the feeling i felt that i’ve lost since you’ve come in my way”

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[267] Secrets

November 2, 2019by Rahul Gaur3 Comments

Look for me for I am lost I usually find myself in a faraway thought I can tell you all my secrets and scatter all my lies but it’s in the language of my twisted tongue Do you have the will to try? I’m saving all the images that I witness now that I’m so [...]

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[266] 42.

October 31, 2019by Rahul Gaur4 Comments

Naturally, we're all filled with self-doubt in every waking moment. A feeling that normally stays dormant till we're faced with the mountain of expectations. Either from us or from others. What we need to understand is that these expectations are given articulation by our own mind. So in a sense, these expectations are self-made. But [...]

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[264] Distortion

October 10, 2019October 10, 2019by Rahul Gaur2 Comments

It’s not easy to live with discontent or to watch sunsets with jet lag or to take hollow flights of fancy thoughts that come down crashing when you’re lovelorn Smoke and memories fade into you And it begins a war that you already knew We perform the dance of not knowing what we’re thinking about [...]

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[263] Swan Song

September 30, 2019September 30, 2019by Rahul GaurLeave a Comment

Days of explorations turn into nights in a blink Unexpected wisdom arises from low expectations Childish hands over your closed eyes and you go through the rapture finally looking through all that you blocked Whispering secrets False promises Ignorant bliss Careless smiles Carefree presence A natural state It comes back in monosyllabic dreams You’ve lost [...]