![[328] The Heart Remembers Nothing](https://i0.wp.com/rahulgaurblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/07/328.jpg?fit=720%2C589&ssl=1)
If I could tell you what I think I would be so free or so I think I want to be you, I and everyone else at the same time I chase everything elusive like the hope of us getting back together All mired in confusion and in the gloom of failed magic You’re a part of my being but I can’t seem to recall you entirely like a book that you can't remember you read but the feeling it gave still carries along I remember you like clouds that drizzled [...]
![[327] The Test of Dawn](https://i1.wp.com/rahulgaurblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/07/img_6054-2650495690-1593714739632.jpg?fit=700%2C417&ssl=1)
I give in to the dark of sleep before it’s sunless outside Self preservation of the highest order so I don’t burn away and can rather fade into a dreamland where I commit mistakes Where I live without the sword of perfection dangling over like it’s judgement day I wake up before the sun [...]
![[325] Cloudy Mind](https://i0.wp.com/rahulgaurblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/img_5933.jpg?fit=720%2C422&ssl=1)
Feeling nothing of consequence It takes a lot of effort to be normal I’m living with hail inside my head and I walk on rainbows with my eyes closed The reckoning wipes clean all that I cherish All that I’m left with are blindspots I become a shadow of a cyclone A [...]
![[324] Seas of Space](https://i1.wp.com/rahulgaurblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/img_5912.jpg?fit=720%2C404&ssl=1)
Answers galore but none that fit my cadence Fragmentary focus of blinking eyes I wake up a thousand times each night I wish I was alive each time Forgetful dreams full of insights while traumatic nightmares fill my days to only shake my momentary faith and a shell that breaks I drown [...]
![[322] Architects of Change](https://i1.wp.com/rahulgaurblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/322.jpeg?fit=720%2C307&ssl=1)
The rebels of today are still wiping the sleep off their eyes Dust off of books that remind them of the history that were kept from their uninformed minds They say it's never too late to begin again So now it is the wisdom of a hunched back the focus of an athlete We're the [...]
![[321] Together, we’re alone](https://i0.wp.com/rahulgaurblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/img_5715-1-814874913-1592361474124.jpg?fit=720%2C316&ssl=1)
Similar lives meet to form bonds and a connection to last ages or so it felt like back then Now you sleep at a different time unable to pick up my calls while my inner landscape and its tectonic plates collide to form volcanoes of panic All I'm left with is a remembrance of you saying [...]
![[320] War of Life](https://i0.wp.com/rahulgaurblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/320-314959366-1592189995119.jpeg?fit=720%2C232&ssl=1)
Preaching honesty in vain Everyone has already made up their minds Shapeless phantoms impersonate bankrupt souls The will to look ahead corrupts the need to look inside Imagination summons for meaning in the form of a story As I write a letter to no one at all It reaches on the shore of an apocalyptic [...]
![[319] Erosion of Self](https://i1.wp.com/rahulgaurblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/57d63a13-2abe-48f5-b262-76e30df44494.jpg?fit=720%2C572&ssl=1)
Scrap away my failuresbefore i scar my successLet kindness meet paranoiabefore i meet my demiseEureka moments come to meBut they’re all of the devious kind Cowardice knows me too well at nightI dwell in the hour of despaironly to keep my muses at baySometimes i feel self worth is not for meSometimes i feel a [...]
![[315] Look Beyond Yourself](https://i1.wp.com/rahulgaurblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/05/rni-films-img-326a4a51-abb1-4788-a79f-4d5cde96616d.jpg?fit=720%2C960&ssl=1)
We’re collective creatures of confusion Faking it all with profound conviction With answers devoid of questions we ramble aloud all of our unrealised emotions We stumble upon multiple universes carefully made of drunken mistakes but all in a state of sobriety So we see nothing till we don’t drink a dose of madness to see [...]
![[314] No One At All](https://i0.wp.com/rahulgaurblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/05/314-1048932828-1590637757521.jpg?fit=502%2C378&ssl=1)
Being someone else Being somewhere else After a while all perfume smells are familiar and the association of the smell with characters Today I wear you and try to see it all through you The way I pause before I speak The way I don’t pay attention to time at all Maybe you saw the [...]
