Self-diagnosed with no self-confidence
I indulge in the breaking of my mind
Compliments fall on my Van Gogh ear
I reach my home to finally find my city on fire
‘Do you have any last words?’ the fire asks
And the words on the threshold swallow up my tongue
I had prepared a speech for all my loved ones I think
but I see nothing but ashes of their smiles
No crowded room at my deathbed
Will my last emotion be regret?
I rationalize to say it’s only becoming
of the times I haven’t said what I thought
never saying I love you to her when she wanted
or never messaging a compliment to the ones
who needed it when they were down because I was too
The finality of the moment weighs me down
I fail to realise I’ll only become lighter
weaker and sleepier in my final moments
I’m still unable to form words for a writer that I am/was
Unexpected death has robbed me of language
so I do what I always did when I didn’t know what to do
I smiled
The ashes summon the rain and the rain summon the colours
The flowers grow from the concrete and the city is forgotten
I am in a forest in a blink with all my close friends and family as flowers
I walk up to them and they say
‘choose which plant you want to be’
I have to choose between a touch me not plant or a sunflower
I would have chosen the first in a different dimension of regret
but my last words were a smile of a lifetime
and a fulfilling life I won’t forget
Smile of a lifetime…. Beautiful words summed up so well Rahul 🌼🌼💛
Thank you so much for the compliment 🙂
Very beautifully written! 🌟
Thank you Nitesh 🙂
My pleasure! 😊
“never saying I love you to her when she wanted” – it’s not about rare, grand gestures – it’s much more about consistently performing little acts of love. so… never hesitate to say, “I love you!”
For sure Ben, for sure!
beautifully written and with so much heart felt emotions! Great job!!
So you have chosen the sunflower.. with a smile, right? Not the touch me not! Very thoughtful poem, Rahul. <3
Yes, that is correct! The character in the poem has. Thank you JanBeek 🌻
Well penned..!😊🙌🏻
Thank you Akshita 🙂
Wow. Wonderful work!
Thank you. So glad you liked it 🙂