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![[265] Still Life](https://i1.wp.com/rahulgaurblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2018/10/screen-shot-2018-10-10-at-11-50-08-pm.png?fit=720%2C335&ssl=1)
A loss of words and a loss of reality I lose all fire and I lost on vitality The gift lies unwrapped somewhere in the absurdity To find all my feelings Blocked memories surface to weep I sing all my worries and you sing back with silence I sing all my disappointments but you start [...]
![[264] Distortion](https://i0.wp.com/rahulgaurblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/10/img_6534.jpg?fit=720%2C566&ssl=1)
It’s not easy to live with discontent or to watch sunsets with jet lag or to take hollow flights of fancy thoughts that come down crashing when you’re lovelorn Smoke and memories fade into you And it begins a war that you already knew We perform the dance of not knowing what we’re thinking about [...]
![[263] Swan Song](https://i1.wp.com/rahulgaurblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/09/img_6368.jpg?fit=720%2C651&ssl=1)
Days of explorations turn into nights in a blink Unexpected wisdom arises from low expectations Childish hands over your closed eyes and you go through the rapture finally looking through all that you blocked Whispering secrets False promises Ignorant bliss Careless smiles Carefree presence A natural state It comes back in monosyllabic dreams You’ve lost [...]
![[262] About Health/At Your Best](https://i1.wp.com/rahulgaurblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/09/img_6327.jpg?fit=720%2C760&ssl=1)
Surrounded by banality Shadows searching for light It’s a dance of paralysis No healthy body in sight Flashes of mediocrity form a way to keep alive I’m alive I affirm encircled by the ravens in the night It's hard to trap lost genius when I can only seem to find lost time Let me know [...]
![[261] How To Begin Again](https://i2.wp.com/rahulgaurblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/09/261.jpeg?fit=397%2C127&ssl=1)
You forget the process when you stay away from it long enough. The process of beginning again rusts to form resistance and you feel lost while trying to find the spark to discover fire again. There is the idea and then there is a journey you go through to reach that idea or let that [...]
![[260] I think I know it all](https://i1.wp.com/rahulgaurblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/09/260.jpg?fit=720%2C540&ssl=1)
A clean slate of self-discovery A push is needed to find all my checkpoints again Knowledge has become amnesic in the pursuit I can only hold so much in the little head that's left Smoke alarm whirring in my airy bones Intoxications only resolve to bring back lost energy All that comes back is the [...]
![[259] About Confidence](https://i0.wp.com/rahulgaurblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/12/106-e1512981534893.jpg?fit=720%2C651&ssl=1)
Righteous rebels devouring fast food for knowledge Forming systematic methods of slow suicides by reading headlines as speeches by reading speeches as laws The excitement of a person also reveals their insecurities hidden behind their energies that dismiss the calm of their voice The louder the sound the fickle the idea behind the thought No [...]
![[258] Finding My Voice](https://i1.wp.com/rahulgaurblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/08/257-3257044821-1566640852395.jpg?fit=720%2C395&ssl=1)
Empty threats to myself I'm thinking more and wondering less She is in love with the part of me I hate Let me be anywhere but the present Let me remove myself and erode the brittle past Solace in all the self-pity you seem to read and enjoy Dangling on a thread shaped like a [...]
![[257] Discriminating Cycles](https://i0.wp.com/rahulgaurblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/07/img_5017.jpg?fit=633%2C485&ssl=1)
Time is the greatest discriminator For some there’s less For some there’s more For some it’s omnipresent For some it’s invisible There are moments you feel where you’re not the happiest but the most content You realise you don’t know the time then but then the desire to know it arises and your eyes waver [...]
![[256] Divine Envy](https://i0.wp.com/rahulgaurblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/07/74238685-f2df-45f8-952a-69d4bd274833.jpg?fit=720%2C444&ssl=1)
Stealing the universe from God We live in divine envy We live in isolation from all the times we’ve died in our dreams Collecting rain in our umbrellas We walk away from our own self Like the darkness exists outside us And inside us is a star burning in glee The truth is rather strange [...]