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[207] Looking Again
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How do I start writing? How have I written until this point in time? These questions plague my mind that is numb. Feelings don’t come and stay, they are fleeting like the time that I lost. The confidence that I cherished until now is nowhere to be felt. Ideas do come in my head but…
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[206] on a hiatus
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I don’t think I have it in me to write any longer. Until I can, goodbye. Hope you guys will take care. Will come back. Just don’t know when.
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[205] Last Attempt
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Uncanny valleys of little sense Where everything feels not real at all You are at the far end of my regret I’ll be quite near to your regret in a while Wilted leaves fall out of time I try to revolve to maintain our orbits But you’re going astray into another galaxy Far away new…
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[204] Knock Knock
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The dreams deceive the reality that the morning light confirms Who would have thought that the light meeting the dark would be the reason of my demise In the morning I weigh a lot more in my mind Everything is a reminder of you and the red sunlight in my eyes makes me think of…
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[203] Wear Your Best Dress
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free my mind of these thoughts that seem to haunt my living call upon the angel at dark only so she can deny helping me and I can finally let these thoughts in and destroy me from inside and implode into little pieces of dust that you have in your eyes when you wake up…
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[201] Moon River
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I try to find you in a song that plays A melancholic melody of a piano player Your shadow of a smile doesn’t try to remain between my mind The smile moves to utter a breath that speaks a word that I can’t hear or see It feels like a momentary thing for this moment…
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[200] Changing Colours
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It’s a sky fall around here the rockets are exploding to form stars your eyes look golden it feels safe to be in your arms but I wish I was chosen and not be just a luck formed by your cry now I wish we were older and leave what’s about to come all behind…
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[199] live alone for once
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I sleep at the time of your waking You yawn at my desperatation Screams inside turn into white noise It feels like the time of the wolves I crack at the sound of your fumes Too close to the sun now Flares of your regret too near My eyes melt at the sight of you…
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[198] The Clown Smiles
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Cold winter breeze grazes my spine It breaks little by little when i smile The world is upside down that’s why it seems like i’m smiling If I don’t live try to kill my ghost If it haunts all the lonely souls who can feel everything slip away as if they held the sands of…
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[197] A Mental Maze
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Through the shadowless spiky trees I watch you walk with the graveyard of loss weighing you down Seagulls screech a mirage of the end of this murky forest that you managed to find the courage to walk through The leaves sway in regretful melancholy as the clouds patiently tease you with the possibility of wreaking…
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[196] The Start of Our End
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Like a dying echo of the birth of the world in a shell, I try to find the beginning of our end in your silence. When this comforting occurrence of silence slowly lost its meaning. Comfort turned into brooding hatred. It all started with the want to impress you. We tested each other’s walls. Were…
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[194] History of Love
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Devoid of emotion Her porcelain gaze left me wondering if she was a ghost and I a shadow A pat on the back with her velvet hands gave me energy i never knew i had I marched on living For a night I wondered when it rained does she cry like I do or does…
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[193] Bittersweet Surprise
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Can it be easy to feel? Can it be easy to live? Can it be? Can’t it be? The way I see things we’ve loved and we’ve lost can you just tell me what to think cuz sometimes it gets dark around here and so hard to navigate through these thoughts sometimes I can try…
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[191] Pretty little nightmares
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If you’re going to pretend like I don’t exist then i am not going to leave a trace of my living I don’t want to fight a war where we mince words Feels like a creature can crawl from the hell and beyond anytime But i guess it is not far from where we stand…
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[190] The Answer
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Trying to find the truth in monotony To watch the facades makes mistakes To watch the patterns reveal itself I wait till chaos turns to beauty till the devil starts grinning with its details Fleeting moments don’t capture the essence of a moment so strange It doesn’t capture the wind and present it as air…