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[278] Us & Them
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For all that i’m lacking in You seem to carry it Should I be attracted? My intuition is still deciding Nowadays I delay decisions I delay emotions to get inside a feeling Lenses of right and wrong have overtaken any given moment In this age of misinformation I’ve started trusting myself a lot less than…
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[277] Understanding Your Silence
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In the city of depression that sells distraction in the night I catch you staring at the ceiling of a club to disguise the mood you found yourself in tonight The music blares above my crackled call for attention A faint breaking voice breaks through the cacophony You look like you’ve heard the sound of…
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[275] All Paintings are Self Portraits
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My free advice to you is falling on my deaf ears I project it all to you in hopes that I get myself to hear a cry for help and a life to live I walk in fear and paralyse my honest voice that screams in vacuum all the dreams unfulfilled I create behaviour over…
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[274] Let’s Talk About It
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I listen to you and go back to a time where I lived a simpler life Where your tales of grandeur were happening in the corner of my eye You describe all the sins to forget Morals that you trampled on Why does it then feel familiar? Am I seeing what I experienced more than…
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[273] Breathing Yesterday’s Air
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The age of excess and the diminishing impact of the pains of our glory and the learnings of a failure Every lesson swept under the rug that is hidden under my cerebrum which is rusting in the shame for all that I couldn’t learn and all that I couldn’t tell you in time Whenever I…
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[272] About Past Love
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A rusted bench on a worn out boat It takes up all my attention as it’s holding all of you that i’m holding all in me Waves gush on the boat We land on our head We bleed away our minds We die inside time Carry me over to where you reside where the old…
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[271] Making of The Truth
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What pushes a person from knowing something to be true to believing something to be true? It’s the journey between knowledge and feeling that knowledge. The gap between thinking and doing. To understand this is to know yourself. You are gradually learning the things that shape you and you begin to create these surroundings by…
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[270] Dreaming Reality Checks
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The passing of my sleep signal a doom of my dreams where I watch all that I think I needed linking it with the edge of reality Of lost paths, I could have taken to happiness Of the ways, that I could not fear less It arrives to me like a bohemian sensation Light in…
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[269] Lying To Myself
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All that I’ve written previously are thoughts that I no longer remember, words that I didn’t act upon and feelings that I don’t relate to. Is all we are the thoughts that we hold then? Or are the ones I’m writing out now going to become a part of my subconscious soon? Will these thoughts…
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[268] Communication
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I mix up silence for aggression Fighting you in imaginary wars Where do you find your words usually? It seems you’ve lost your way Your answer comes as a bitter understanding “Feelings turn into half thoughts Words impure them usually Sentences jumble the feeling i felt that i’ve lost since you’ve come in my way”
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[267] Secrets
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Look for me for I am lost I usually find myself in a faraway thought I can tell you all my secrets and scatter all my lies but it’s in the language of my twisted tongue Do you have the will to try? I’m saving all the images that I witness now that I’m so…
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[265] Still Life
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A loss of words and a loss of reality I lose all fire and I lost on vitality The gift lies unwrapped somewhere in the absurdity To find all my feelings Blocked memories surface to weep I sing all my worries and you sing back with silence I sing all my disappointments but you start…
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[264] Distortion
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It’s not easy to live with discontent or to watch sunsets with jet lag or to take hollow flights of fancy thoughts that come down crashing when you’re lovelorn Smoke and memories fade into you And it begins a war that you already knew We perform the dance of not knowing what we’re thinking about…
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[263] Swan Song
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Days of explorations turn into nights in a blink Unexpected wisdom arises from low expectations Childish hands over your closed eyes and you go through the rapture finally looking through all that you blocked Whispering secrets False promises Ignorant bliss Careless smiles Carefree presence A natural state It comes back in monosyllabic dreams You’ve lost…
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[262] About Health/At Your Best
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Surrounded by banality Shadows searching for light It’s a dance of paralysis No healthy body in sight Flashes of mediocrity form a way to keep alive I’m alive I affirm encircled by the ravens in the night It’s hard to trap lost genius when I can only seem to find lost time Let me know…