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[270] Dreaming Reality Checks

November 14, 2019by Rahul Gaur3 Comments

The passing of my sleep signal a doom of my dreams where I watch all that I think I needed linking it with the edge of reality Of lost paths, I could have taken to happiness Of the ways, that I could not fear less It arrives to me like a bohemian sensation Light in [...]

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[266] 42.

October 31, 2019by Rahul Gaur4 Comments

Naturally, we're all filled with self-doubt in every waking moment. A feeling that normally stays dormant till we're faced with the mountain of expectations. Either from us or from others. What we need to understand is that these expectations are given articulation by our own mind. So in a sense, these expectations are self-made. But [...]

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[261] How To Begin Again

September 27, 2019September 27, 2019by Rahul Gaur2 Comments

You forget the process when you stay away from it long enough. The process of beginning again rusts to form resistance and you feel lost while trying to find the spark to discover fire again. There is the idea and then there is a journey you go through to reach that idea or let that [...]

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[237] Fever Dream

April 16, 2019by Rahul Gaur6 Comments

Realities stack on top of each other warning me of my feeble head Fed by the system of mistakes I try to hold on to another identity to hold me together for a while again Imagine leaves stuck in stillness somewhere between green and the wilt of a brown so much so that the moment [...]

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[202] The Performance of an Artist

October 17, 2018by Rahul Gaur13 Comments

Nothing satisfies an artist. We are creatures who’ve got self-doubt running in our veins. Everywhere we go we remind ourselves of our inadequacy to be better/best. We hold our failures on a pedestal rather than letting our victories dance around our mind. Even to call ourselves artist only springs up an emotion of cringe in us. The myth [...]

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[144] Rebel With A Cause

May 6, 2018May 13, 2018by Rahul Gaur6 Comments

We are told that "don't upset the system" "don't be a rebel and lose your mind". The reason? The functioning of the system is crucial for miscreants to survive. To not politicise art is just another way of submitting to the pressure of not being seen as a rebel. As the word, 'rebel' has a [...]

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[134] Loss For Words

April 1, 2018by Rahul Gaur9 Comments

The sky waves in its colourful intensity I struggle to intensify the thoughts in my head to write them like they used to before to get my mind talking to my fingers The lies that used to come so easily now hide behind the truth of incapability Memorable performances for the crowd is a rarity as [...]

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[133] Afraid Of Acting On My Dreams

March 20, 2018by Rahul Gaur13 Comments

Dreams of shooting stars because I'm fearful of acting on my own dreams A trip to the mountains A life out of time created out of a vacuum is what exists in my mind An escapist idea it is to run away from the reality or maybe this reality we talk of is just the [...]

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[130] Memories of Future/Past

March 5, 2018March 5, 2018by Rahul Gaur18 Comments

Nod at my shortcomings and welcome me to your space I know it rains there often I know there's little room to move But I am ready to live there if you are ready to live at all In the forest of your insecurities that hides the ray of hope Even though it rarely appears [...]

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[127] Life: A Parody

February 18, 2018February 18, 2018by Rahul Gaur5 Comments

Aren't we all just parodies of our true selves? Trying to feign reality but only becoming an amusement in return. We are always striving for the illusory knowledge of ourselves but all we find is an illusory illusion which breaks when we probe further. Where does the answer to the quest of our journey lies? [...]