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[280] Prelude to an Apocalypse
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I’m pretty still till i will myself to sit and until you arrive I stand up unconsciously You’re the morning dawn The creepers of the night kill the silence between us as we discuss in the quiet all the things we said before neatly imprinted in our minds forcefully spoken by our hearts The black…
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[279] Past, Present & Future
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Living off of premonitions Surviving off of doomed predictions Can you change your fate as all your peers fail to prove you wrong Can you become something that you’ve never seen? I never realised that the aftermath is not my future I never realised the empathy for some is exclusion I’ve never seen the potential…
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[278] Us & Them
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For all that i’m lacking in You seem to carry it Should I be attracted? My intuition is still deciding Nowadays I delay decisions I delay emotions to get inside a feeling Lenses of right and wrong have overtaken any given moment In this age of misinformation I’ve started trusting myself a lot less than…
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[277] Understanding Your Silence
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In the city of depression that sells distraction in the night I catch you staring at the ceiling of a club to disguise the mood you found yourself in tonight The music blares above my crackled call for attention A faint breaking voice breaks through the cacophony You look like you’ve heard the sound of…
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[275] All Paintings are Self Portraits
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My free advice to you is falling on my deaf ears I project it all to you in hopes that I get myself to hear a cry for help and a life to live I walk in fear and paralyse my honest voice that screams in vacuum all the dreams unfulfilled I create behaviour over…
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[274] Let’s Talk About It
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I listen to you and go back to a time where I lived a simpler life Where your tales of grandeur were happening in the corner of my eye You describe all the sins to forget Morals that you trampled on Why does it then feel familiar? Am I seeing what I experienced more than…
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[273] Breathing Yesterday’s Air
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The age of excess and the diminishing impact of the pains of our glory and the learnings of a failure Every lesson swept under the rug that is hidden under my cerebrum which is rusting in the shame for all that I couldn’t learn and all that I couldn’t tell you in time Whenever I…
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[272] About Past Love
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A rusted bench on a worn out boat It takes up all my attention as it’s holding all of you that i’m holding all in me Waves gush on the boat We land on our head We bleed away our minds We die inside time Carry me over to where you reside where the old…
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[269] Lying To Myself
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All that I’ve written previously are thoughts that I no longer remember, words that I didn’t act upon and feelings that I don’t relate to. Is all we are the thoughts that we hold then? Or are the ones I’m writing out now going to become a part of my subconscious soon? Will these thoughts…
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[268] Communication
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I mix up silence for aggression Fighting you in imaginary wars Where do you find your words usually? It seems you’ve lost your way Your answer comes as a bitter understanding “Feelings turn into half thoughts Words impure them usually Sentences jumble the feeling i felt that i’ve lost since you’ve come in my way”
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[267] Secrets
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Look for me for I am lost I usually find myself in a faraway thought I can tell you all my secrets and scatter all my lies but it’s in the language of my twisted tongue Do you have the will to try? I’m saving all the images that I witness now that I’m so…
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[266] 42.
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Naturally, we’re all filled with self-doubt in every waking moment. A feeling that normally stays dormant till we’re faced with the mountain of expectations. Either from us or from others. What we need to understand is that these expectations are given articulation by our own mind. So in a sense, these expectations are self-made. But…
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[264] Distortion
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It’s not easy to live with discontent or to watch sunsets with jet lag or to take hollow flights of fancy thoughts that come down crashing when you’re lovelorn Smoke and memories fade into you And it begins a war that you already knew We perform the dance of not knowing what we’re thinking about…
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[263] Swan Song
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Days of explorations turn into nights in a blink Unexpected wisdom arises from low expectations Childish hands over your closed eyes and you go through the rapture finally looking through all that you blocked Whispering secrets False promises Ignorant bliss Careless smiles Carefree presence A natural state It comes back in monosyllabic dreams You’ve lost…
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[262] About Health/At Your Best
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Surrounded by banality Shadows searching for light It’s a dance of paralysis No healthy body in sight Flashes of mediocrity form a way to keep alive I’m alive I affirm encircled by the ravens in the night It’s hard to trap lost genius when I can only seem to find lost time Let me know…