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[285] empty promises
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A picture so grey, on a broken paper it remains It conjures up a time that held importance but only in the back of my mind Time turned its wheels and it let it drown away it let it bury under the tip of the iceberg Now all I see is a blinking light in my…
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[283] Pendulum of Thoughts
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I know my illness better than I know myself It’s a cold morning breeze on the last day of summer There is no knock before it enters or any calm before the storm It makes me taste an ecstasy that comes with an understanding that there is a ceiling to every summit and no one…
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[282] together we’re apart
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Is it peace or the calm before the storm? My nimble fingers force my eyes close to forget all the frequencies that I find clashing when my focus tries to pull together a semblance of an insight into us Forget all the disturbance in the frequencies between us Forget all the distance that’s increasing by…
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[281] New Ending/Beginning
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I wrote small words before I met her Now I find myself writing them in the grandest of strokes She salvages all my crumpled paper mistakes and glues them back together to reveal an exhibition of my improvement She made me understand that silences don’t necessarily need distraction but sometimes it just needs listening She…
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[280] Prelude to an Apocalypse
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I’m pretty still till i will myself to sit and until you arrive I stand up unconsciously You’re the morning dawn The creepers of the night kill the silence between us as we discuss in the quiet all the things we said before neatly imprinted in our minds forcefully spoken by our hearts The black…
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[278] Us & Them
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For all that i’m lacking in You seem to carry it Should I be attracted? My intuition is still deciding Nowadays I delay decisions I delay emotions to get inside a feeling Lenses of right and wrong have overtaken any given moment In this age of misinformation I’ve started trusting myself a lot less than…
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[275] All Paintings are Self Portraits
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My free advice to you is falling on my deaf ears I project it all to you in hopes that I get myself to hear a cry for help and a life to live I walk in fear and paralyse my honest voice that screams in vacuum all the dreams unfulfilled I create behaviour over…
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[274] Let’s Talk About It
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I listen to you and go back to a time where I lived a simpler life Where your tales of grandeur were happening in the corner of my eye You describe all the sins to forget Morals that you trampled on Why does it then feel familiar? Am I seeing what I experienced more than…
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[273] Breathing Yesterday’s Air
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The age of excess and the diminishing impact of the pains of our glory and the learnings of a failure Every lesson swept under the rug that is hidden under my cerebrum which is rusting in the shame for all that I couldn’t learn and all that I couldn’t tell you in time Whenever I…
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[272] About Past Love
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A rusted bench on a worn out boat It takes up all my attention as it’s holding all of you that i’m holding all in me Waves gush on the boat We land on our head We bleed away our minds We die inside time Carry me over to where you reside where the old…
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[271] Making of The Truth
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What pushes a person from knowing something to be true to believing something to be true? It’s the journey between knowledge and feeling that knowledge. The gap between thinking and doing. To understand this is to know yourself. You are gradually learning the things that shape you and you begin to create these surroundings by…
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[270] Dreaming Reality Checks
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The passing of my sleep signal a doom of my dreams where I watch all that I think I needed linking it with the edge of reality Of lost paths, I could have taken to happiness Of the ways, that I could not fear less It arrives to me like a bohemian sensation Light in…
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[269] Lying To Myself
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All that I’ve written previously are thoughts that I no longer remember, words that I didn’t act upon and feelings that I don’t relate to. Is all we are the thoughts that we hold then? Or are the ones I’m writing out now going to become a part of my subconscious soon? Will these thoughts…
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[268] Communication
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I mix up silence for aggression Fighting you in imaginary wars Where do you find your words usually? It seems you’ve lost your way Your answer comes as a bitter understanding “Feelings turn into half thoughts Words impure them usually Sentences jumble the feeling i felt that i’ve lost since you’ve come in my way”
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[267] Secrets
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Look for me for I am lost I usually find myself in a faraway thought I can tell you all my secrets and scatter all my lies but it’s in the language of my twisted tongue Do you have the will to try? I’m saving all the images that I witness now that I’m so…