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[269] Lying To Myself
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All that I’ve written previously are thoughts that I no longer remember, words that I didn’t act upon and feelings that I don’t relate to. Is all we are the thoughts that we hold then? Or are the ones I’m writing out now going to become a part of my subconscious soon? Will these thoughts…
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[266] 42.
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Naturally, we’re all filled with self-doubt in every waking moment. A feeling that normally stays dormant till we’re faced with the mountain of expectations. Either from us or from others. What we need to understand is that these expectations are given articulation by our own mind. So in a sense, these expectations are self-made. But…
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[261] How To Begin Again
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You forget the process when you stay away from it long enough. The process of beginning again rusts to form resistance and you feel lost while trying to find the spark to discover fire again. There is the idea and then there is a journey you go through to reach that idea or let that…
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[246] Confused Clarity
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My distraction is aware of all that it lacks. It can be missing out on the various sounds of rain or it can be not holding the knowledge to appreciate architecture it falls on. I accept that there is a lot that I don’t accept. I understand that there is a lot that I don’t…
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[238] The Napkin Cafe
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Mumbai is a city where you see people drifting in and out of their own lives. Some days they feel the urge to live and some days they stay quiet and let the city consume them. On the days of living people go out in blind hope of chancing upon their destiny. They feel the…
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[222] Letting Go
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I’m at a point in my life where tedium has replaced ideas in my brain. The concept of time is just a construct and the passing of it as ignorant as my ignorant breaths. I lie in bed, fully awake in my physical form but half asleep mentally. The internal voices have died down into…
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[207] Looking Again
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How do I start writing? How have I written until this point in time? These questions plague my mind that is numb. Feelings don’t come and stay, they are fleeting like the time that I lost. The confidence that I cherished until now is nowhere to be felt. Ideas do come in my head but…
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[202] The Performance of an Artist
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Nothing satisfies an artist. We are creatures who’ve got self-doubt running in our veins. Everywhere we go we remind ourselves of our inadequacy to be better/best. We hold our failures on a pedestal rather than letting our victories dance around our mind. Even to call ourselves artist only springs up an emotion of cringe in us. The myth…
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[189] Promote Your Blog
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It’s September. The month of my birthday. Fall has begun but I’m reminded of my progress in blogging and how lovely it has been. The only consistency in my life. — Also, you guys are free to comment here your blog links or one post that you’d like everyone to read. Let’s make this a…
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[181] Mass Hysteria of Truth
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The loneliest thing in the world is to search for the truth in everything and anything. Ask any conscious artist the question, “what is good art?”, and most of them will answer “it’s the pursuit of truth”. No one will ever say “it’s when you get to the truth” because no one ever gets to…
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[176] How To Be Successful?
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We’re all excited in the story of the successful. The 1% that have achieved what they imagined. We deny ourselves thinking that we won’t be a part of that 1%, so we don’t listen to the other not so successful 99%. So now we don’t know what not to do. Who tells the story of…
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[171] How To Find Balance in Life
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Staying in your room for long hours helps you connect with your inner voice. You’re finally able to identify why you aren’t making some decisions and why you’re making some. Decisions as trivial such as fully focussing on the TV show you’re watching and denying yourself that decision by holding the phone in your hand…
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[159] The Return of The Symphony
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To let the music write a story in your mind is an experience like no other. The language of music ranges from producing emotions such as anger, love, hopelessness and sometimes all of these in one go. My mind was writing a story tuned to Mozart’s Piano Sonata No.16 Andante. A story of a slow…
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[156] Unlearning From My Mistakes
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Begin. Aimlessness. It’s a feeling we all feel at some point in our life, for some it is most of the time. It can range from being aimless about our career choices, our spirituality, about what to eat when you’re sitting in a restaurant with the waiter holding the pen and also his attention towards…
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[149] The Future Waits For None
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As I sit here, a realisation dawns on me. The world nods in confirmation of my fear that it doesn’t really require me as it runs without me unabashedly. This doesn’t come as a surprise at all but it comes like that strong gust of wind that uproots even the most rooted grass from the…