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[523] Count Me Out
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When the lights go outI’m left with a lack in melike damage dwells in my kneeIs it pain or upward spinal ecstasy?Playing catch up to my thoughtsAn utter abandon of prideShudder and stutter in speechAll the ravens waiting for meIn the painting of my lifelies a dark centre amidst delightMelancholic bitter sweet flightA confident self…
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[414] Fooled by Randomness
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My spirit lacksthe water to floatin my waning inner reservoirIt’s a place where shadows come to hide so they don’t attract attentionand die in the form of a spotlight storyStories we tell ourselvesand others about the way we see the worldkills the intuitive dualistinside us that tries to keep the lure of a mystery alive…
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[406] An Unbreakable Infinite Bubble
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I seek for everything and nothing I am pining for everyone and no one at allI am lying when I’m truthful to all my basal urgesin the hope of discriminating betweenthe intuition that is right and the impulse that is wrongCalm, elevated and singularI stay fixated in my equipoise beingbut when I stray from the…
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[120] The Glory of Silence
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There’s both glory and doom in knowing yourself. The glory is that self-awareness helps you to not make mistakes. The doom is that you still make mistakes and you are self-aware about it. You suffer. You feel like your suffering knows no bound. No one’s suffering can compare with yours. But then you listen to…
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[20] Questions Series: What Gives Me Energy?
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The adrenaline in my body starts to pump up all the wiring in my brain when I watch a moment in a movie that just makes me jump out in joy. A good movie is like an instant energizer for me no matter how low on energy I am
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[18] Diversity in Thought
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I arrived at the gate of my new prison (read: college) and scoured the area for familiar faces (read: friendly faces). All I saw was an accumulation unto my conservative outlook of the world. People smoking, hurling abuses, holding hands and what not. It was the opposite of what I was taught to be. The…
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[11] Illness and its grip on you
A disease stricken mind can’t function at its fullest potential but if you stay idle you are letting it overpower you. Have you tried hard enough to work your mind in 102 degrees temperature that you are radiating? Illness forms a grip on you when you let it. The best way to at least make…
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[9] Forgetfulness of Dreams.
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You wake up from another world, still suffering from the dizziness you were engulfed in. A senseless world it was, weird in nature but some say it tells a lot about your deepest secrets. Dreams. You sleep, ignorant about the world you’re about to get in, yet you will be inside it. A fall, to…
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[7] Thread and the needle.
When I was a child, my favourite pastime was playing with toy cars with my grandma. I used to wait for her to finish the work she did throughout the day and sit on the bed, waiting for her to come. The cars were always ready. I put them in order for her to choose…
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[6] I don’t know.
How much do you believe your role model? How much do you believe the philosophers that walked on this planet? How much do you believe anyone who says anything? Every word I spew, write, slice, reflect, shoot on this page is a manifestation of the experience of my tiny existence. And our experience is limited?…
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[5] Who am I?
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I am “….partly truth, partly fiction. A walking contradiction.” It is difficult to know yourself, the real true self. If you shed your skin, underneath you’ll find another layer and then another. How do you climb down to the deepest holes to find one’s true self? First, there is a possibility that you will weep…
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[4] Regret.
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You’re on your deathbed staring at the faces that stand beside you but your thoughts meander towards an imagined reality of what it could have been only if I did that. If becomes the starting word of every thought that you take. If only I would have said yes to that girl. If only I would…
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[3]Thoughts on thoughts.
…With every passing day, I discover new things about myself, others, about the world. How can we store the sudden bursts of thoughts we have? How do we find a way to recall that same emotion that we felt when we first had thought and with the same intensity? …My resilience was in sync with…